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Whatever you Want...I Want.

In having my quiet time today I was reading Luke 1:34-38. The verse that spoke to my heart the most was verse 38, "Mary responded, 'I am the Lord's servant. May everything you have said about me come true'." The Lord literally smacked me in the face and reminded me that Mary had only one question for the angel when she found out she would be carrying the Holy One..."how can this be"...that was it. In trying to put myself in Mary's shoes, I realized that in no way shape or form would I be able to have only ONE question. However, the Lord reminded me that the reason she had only one question was because her attitude and relationship with Him was submissive and trusting. At this point, I burst into tears. I was so convicted! I am NOT that submissive, nor am I able to say I do not question the motives of my Savior,especially in our current journey. However, Mary was so close to the Lord that she simply said "Lord, I am Your handmaid. Whatever You want, I want". Total submission...no other questions.
In digging deeper into these verses as well as putting our current journey into perspective, I realized something. Of course, Mary was getting ready to have this AMAZING thing happen to her that people would be talking about forever, so she WOULD be that submissive. However, the Lord reminded me, she had a lot of obstacles to face and a lot of uncertainties, but she still had only ONE question. In going over in my head everything going on with Tyler and I, the Lord pointed out to me that although our story, thus far, is not as AMAZING as this one, He is still working. How quickly we forget that the Lord has a plan and a purpose...if we would just submit to HIS will we might see these plans and purposes unfold.
My point in blogging this intimate time I had with the Lord this morning, is to simply say, "not MY will but YOURS...nothing MORE and nothing LESS". I have been so caught up in what I want, and that's to have a baby, that I'm not seeking the Lord's heart nor desires. It's selfish and I can't help but think I might be missing out on blessings along this journey, because I am not taking heed of the example Mary set for us. Being submissive to the Lord isn't an easy task, but I truly believe that once I lay this journey COMPLETELY at His feet I will have that sense of submissiveness, that in return, will give me complete peace no matter what the outcome. Isn't our Savior amazing?
"Father, In your hands and by Your power, You can do through me whatever you desire. May I believe in this greater measure...nothing more and nothing less, Amen".

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  1. UnknownJuly 31, 2011 at 1:43 PM

    Yes, dearest Brittany, trust Him. He is worth it. He is trustworthy. And He is there . . . in the midst of your trial . . . and everything He does is good. I am so blessed to see you trusting our Lord. May His presence surround you and fill you and bless you as you continue on this journey . . .

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